Monday, February 27, 2006







Eftersom min hjärna idag tagit flytande form skriver jag på svenska. Förlåt till alla mina internationella vänner, men ni får har förståelse för att jag idag av diverser anledningar inte funktionerar normalt.

Det kan ha att göra med min intensiva Skottland vecka. Som vanligt känner jag mig tom när jag kommer därifrån. Tom för att det känns som att allt jag har för tillfället finns i Skottland och främst i Edinburgh.

Veckan har innehållit alla element som en lyckat Skottland vistelse ska bestå av.

Mycket vin, goda vänner, tripp till högländerna, tjafs med agenturen, Lost framför brasan och en liten dos kärlek..

Även fast tomheten finns där, är jag också lycklig och det har mycket att göra med min kommande Spanien flytt. Ja precis, jag flyttar om inget oväntat händer till Madrid om 3 veckor.
Helt oplanerat och förmodligen väldigt osmart, men också så fruktansvärt spännande och helt underbart.

Bifogar lite bilder från den föregående veckan, vad och vilka de föreställer får ni lista ut själva.

Puss & Kram på er alla!

The love of my life..


I've realised that Scotland truly is the love of my life. I love everything about it, the highlands the cities, the people the nature, the architecture , yes everything.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

The return to Loch Ness


I'm back after a trip up to highlands.. Everything was great except for when we couldnt find anyplace to stay in Dingwall and had to leave Anna behind to go back to Inverness and find a hostel, or when Thomas crashed another car or when Jose drove over to the wrong side of the road and almost hit a policecar..

I think its my bad charma that brought all this disasters but over all i had a great time and I ended up having a good night out in Inverness with Thomas and Jose..

Thursday, February 16, 2006

I don't miss smoking at all.



I'm serious I never think about it........

Monday, February 13, 2006

Too smart to be sober..


Friday, February 10, 2006

I've made an decision today, and that is not to be unhappy anymore. Why put so much energy in complaining and feeling sorry for myself when i can use that energy to feel good instead?

So I wont allowe myself to complain unless i REALLY have a problem.. And how many of us can say that we do have real problems?

I Have amazing, talented friends, a good job, a family that does'nt resemble too much to the Adams family and im not completely unfortunate looking, in other words I have a great life!!!

So from now on I'm not gonna spread anything else than joy and happiness around me!!

Ce la vie!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Went up, had a shower, got dressed, went to work, had lunch, went shopping, more work, home....
Booring, predictable, monotonous, nice, pleasant and very safe

Sunday, February 05, 2006

If everything that happens is supposed to be and it is all predetermined, you can't change your destiny. Then I guess I'll just keep moving and someday maybe, I'll get to where I'm going.

Friday, February 03, 2006

Bedlam

What do wear, what to feel, what to say, what to think, what to do?

Why am I so confused all the fucking time?

Jag är inte sjuk, det går över!


Förklarar väldigt bra hur jag mår just nu...

Thursday, February 02, 2006

I'm going out of my mind!!

I'm soo booreed right now..

I'm just counting the days til i get back to Scotland.
Anna booked the tickets today so we flying out on the 17th of february, JIPPIE!!

Have nothing to write except that I wanna thank all my friends. You've been very supportive the last couple of weeks and I want you all to know that i really appreciate it!

LOVE YA!!

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Looking at people different


I wonder what makes you see people in a new way?

It's strange when you suddenly see somenone in a new light when you've never thought about them in that way before.
It has only happend to me ones, and what started as i joke ended with me really liking a person.
Or anyway, I like everything i know so far, which is'nt much right now, but i hope it will be.

How come you fall in and out of love, do you ever really know anyone, or is it you that changes??
As most of you know i meet someone last summer, just before i went to Edinburgh. When i got back it wasn't the same thing. Perhaps it's because he's feelings towards me changed and I adjusted to that, but i still think that it would have taken me longer to get over it if i truly were in love with him.
Was I just in love with the feeling of being in love or what happend?!
I still like him as a friend but nothing more than that, so it's difficult to understand that this is a person i thought about all the time just 3 months ago..

So I guess I've only been truly inlove ones, and that lasted for 7 years, our problem wasn't that we fell out of love, but the fact that we wanted different things.

I've had crushes, but even that is rare for me, for a while i suspected that i were incapable of liking somenone new, but i was glad when i found out it wasn't like that. I just needed time for myself .

The picture is of one of my best friends Erik, whom i never been in love with!!!